… I'd go back and throttle myself. We randomly decided to watch a video tonight from a 1993 trip to Canada, and I was almost in tears by the end. How could I have known 15 years ago that in future years I wouldn't care about the scenery, the endless videos of loons, while my sweet children were talking in their little voices just off-screen. It's the kids I wanted to see once more, and all I got was stupid squirrels.